udderiffic indulgence.

i am so excited! Han Na, Grace, Enwei, Matthew and i are going to take part in Touch Attack 2006, a Touch tournament organised by NTU.

come and support us if you are free! we can have a pig-nic or something mid-way during the tournament, during the lunch break (if there is one) or if we get knocked out early. *pooi!* cos we are going in to win! rah!

however, we are still waiting for one more player, cos we need six people to form a team. so, The One, wherefore art thou?

on a sidenote, i am pushing to call our team The Kukubirds but i am also quite sure that the suggestion will probably be shot down in a blaze of glory. hehehe but it would be cool, wouldn’t it?

“Ladies and Gentlemen, presenting, The Kukubirds!”

although Grace just pointed out in her reply to my e-mail:

team name… erm. don’t mind all the names [you suggested]. hahaha. but perhaps not Kukubirds cos if they keep announcing ‘KR KUKUBIRDS PLEASE APPROACH THE TABLE.’ then it’s abit… weird. hurhur. *snort*

hahahaha! BTW the *snort* is i add in one. hehe. but whatever lah.

but yeah! i am so happy cos i have something to look forward to, and that i really enjoy, again. hence, to commemorate this occasion, i am going for a run to start building up my fitness again! and also to commemorate the appearance of SOLID STOOLS after one week of gastric troubles of the worse kind. again! Double Happiness, ladies and gennermen! right after i collect my laundry from the dryer :)

“I notice some people like to tell me stuff like: ‘Wow, you finally attached, ah,’ or ‘Now that you have a girlfriend you must be damn happy,’… . To me, I find this rather discomforting at times. True enough, I am VERY HAPPY, ELATED at the fact that people are vicariously happy for me, feeling my joy, soaking in my happiness etc. I feel loved, yes I do, not only by Joni, but also by the people who care for me and want the best for me.

However, I also note that underlying some (not all) of these comments is, the idea that:

A PERSON NEEDS TO BE ATTACHED/GOING OUT WITH SOMEONE TO BE HAPPY.

In the most polite tone I can muster, I have to emphatically say that: I HIGHLY disagree with that… .

MY TAKE: A PERSON CAN AND SHOULD BE HAPPY REGARDLESS OF WHETHER HE/SHE IS ATTACHED OR NOT.

First of all, by thinking that you need to have a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy/complete or whatever, I think you are severely delimiting yourself [within a set of constraints] and it shows severe lack of confidence on your part. I would say: ‘Be happy when you’re single, man! Enjoy, relax, socialise, get to do the things you can do whilst you’re single.’

To which some people will probably reply, ‘I’ve done that for the past X years.’ Well then, continue doing that until you find someone whom you REALLY love. You are a complete person and you don’t need a partner to make you WHOLE.

Secondly, WHAT DO YOU THINK YOUR PARTNER IS? A commodity? What do you mean by ‘You need him or her to make you happy’? You make that person sound like a product, man. I say, give your [current or] future partner some respect. He or she is a complete human being like you too, so stop talking about her/him as if s/he is some KFC Chicken Wing or Tony Roma BBQ Rib or something… .

Lastly, I was very happy being single, and I AM VERY HAPPY BEING together with Joni… . Notwithstanding that,

Every moment in your life can be joyful and blissful.”

– Zhiwei on || slip of the tongue ||

“So, it’s officially over with Aaron. We talked for an hour and a half yesterday and it’s as over as it gets. Long of the short of it - he’s just not that into me. He said it started to feel like he was just a friend to me. It was a pretty painful converstaion, but it was good at the same time. He said that it wasn’t my fault, it wasn’t his fault, it just didn’t work out. That’s the thing with relationships - they either work out or they don’t… . It hurts and I’m sad, but I’m not wondering or asking what if, so that’s good. Right now I’m feeling like I can’t do this again - I went into it scared to get hurt and that caused me to act in a way that ended up getting me hurt, which makes me scared to try again. I just feel like closing off that part of me… .”

– Sarah on Look inside and see what’s on my mind.